You know what subjects I hate, and what makes me want to start throwing things at people who can't absorb said subjects? Thinking it to death and not letting it go.
For example, at least 50 times on any given week, I hear this little chestnut: "I'm not thinking it to death/not letting go, I'm just worried that...." Where you see those periods add one of many options...here, I'll give you a few. ;) 1. the manifestation is too slow, 2. my target is too stubborn, 3. that I'm too worried about being worried, 4. that God/The Universe hates me and won't give me what I want, 5. That my target will never show me how they feel... etc, etc, etc.
Oh for the love of meat and potatoes, WHAT THE F*#%!
You just said you were entirely lacking faith in yourself, your spell, and often worried about some past factor, if not complaining about some other factor (usually something to do with why you FEAR your spell won't manifest, or about which is outside your control...say a planetary transit,) so you are definitely offending on the thinking to death/not letting go level of things.
Try having a little faith in yourself and in your spell. You might find you are actually having faster success. The next time the little negative thing inside you goes off screaming out inward doubts and freak outs, just still it and ignore it.
You are your own worst enemy if you fall into this sort of behavior regularly...if you want to keep the failure going, just keep worrying and being negative. Its obviously what you feel is the best for you, that being more to worry about and complain about.
The funniest thing is I have created people who fear thinking things to death and that is how they grow negativity to kill their own spell... That really takes a lot of work to actually grow another type of negativity and pessimism to create an even worse situation for yourself. Bravo. (That would be sarcasm.)
This has been an occult public service message from Cat.
PS- Copying, copying and pasting, or in any way taking my work and posting it to your site or book is a serious violation of copyright law. I will persecute you to the fullest extent of said law, and I will also send bad things from bad otherworlds to keep you company until you go mad with fear should you violate my copyright. Thank you.