Hey everyone,
Well it's my soapbox so let me get on it. As some of you already know, Mr NinjaCat is very very unwell. No, it's not COVID. Because of his illness, I have a ton of bills, and because of COVID (no he's not sick with it,) I have very little paying business. He can't work, and his check is guaranteed, whereas I could work 16 hours a day, and make $150 for a week of 16 hour days. :P So basically, I am trying to pay GIGANTIC BILLS, and do that with 1/20th (or less) of the paying business I normally have. Even without bills that Mr NinjaCat incurred, I would have trouble paying my bills right now.... Seriously, the 'Rona hasn't made me sick but clearly it's still trying to kill me.
And the terrible thing is one thing that helps me when I'm having problems is my job. No, not money, it's helping other people makes me feel good. It's why I've done what I do for 16 years - that's more than a third of my life. Right now, my life is a metric fuckton of bullshit, and I can't cope the way I cope...because business is so slow that I'm probably going to have to pick up a second job (I will totally come over and mow your lawn if you pay me, haha.) I miss working. I mean SIXTEEN YEARS doing my job, and I've never had it ever be this slow. I miss all of you so fucking much....I love helping fix problems. :(
So I've done what I always tell you not to do. The one thing that truly fucks with me (mentally) is scary bills and no way to pay them, and of course now I keep thinking my money work to death. I am like a walking advertisement for how to make your money spell NOT manifest at the moment. HA!
I know I will get through this (I have dealt with several fucktons of bullshit in my life,) but I guess enough people have asked what happened and what's going on (some of you are my social media friends, so you know,) and I felt like I had to let you all know that yes, it's true, I am struggling. I am a fighter, and I will keep fighting (and trying to not obsess over my money spells so they will freaking manifest,) but if you talk to me and I seem a little distant, now you know there is a reason. I mean, when your college friends want to start a GoFundMe for you like mine suggested they do for me, you know shit is bad. :/ The NinjaCat family is definitely struggling and not above charity at this point. *sigh*
You are always welcome to speak to me privately on the matter. So many of my clients and readers are my friends that I want you all to know how much you guys mean to me. I know some of you who already heard about it have called and texted, and I appreciate it so much. If there is one thing I love about my job it is how I feel like I have a big family of friends who I love and who love me back. I am truly blessed to have met so many of you. I wish everyone had a job where they were excited to get up in the morning and work like I am.
OK, I'm done crying. I'm getting off the soapbox. I feel better, like a weight is off my chest. That tells me maybe those money spells will manifest soon after all. It gives me some optimism, which is sorely needed. And I promise we can have some fun articles soon, OK? No one wants to hear more of old sad sack over here crying, right? Right.
Love,
~Cat
PS- No I'm not cursed, and yes I checked and I blessed the house and cleansed and did all that stuff. Sometimes life is just shitty.
PPS- Thank you to the people who sent me thank you emails for helping you with my spellwork over the last few weeks. All of you truly helped make me feel better, more so than normal. I always love happy updates, but I really needed to hear it the last few weeks.